so the actual update of me for the last three months i'm not writting? well nothing much different. everything happens pretty much the same way like last year. although i did learn few new things this year. like one of which, be a wise driver even if it is just a go cart. hello, it's very tiny car. but the momentum reached, enuf to give me heavy tender chest for days that keeps limiting my move. but it's soothed up now. no biggie.
anyway, three months in egypt. and i'm surprisngly doing good. not sure if anything is even okay but i'm sure doing good. i admit to feel a little bit of homesickness again, but i wont give that a fuss. plus i'm a third year student. it's kinda weird to say that i miss my mommy. and besides, dad promised to come egypt this year or another. - but i won't keep my hopes high though. i moved in new flat. and this probably a huge mistake i'm yet to fix. but again, i wont give that a fuss. i know my move. i wasn't indecisive. i insisted to leave. it's the right thing i did, just few things that have gone astray i need to get them back on track. everything will be under control, i know. i admit to be less stressful this year, which good. and i've regained back my study spirit. so hey, what more could i ask for?
and going back to that go cart part, it's kinda humiliating how i couldn't swerve. i'm officially over my P period. but how on earth did i fail to stop that tiny stupid go cart from skidding? but u know funny truth, i actually can never drive a manual. i always fail to get the brake and clutch work in sync. and the reason why i aced my driving test is because my uncle works with JPJ. it took me months to gain faith in mom driving her car. and, i'd also secrectly got someone's car tarnished during last summer break..by accident. so probably, i'm not that a good driver, after all. *sigh* and i'm starting to miss my sibs and cousins. i can't wait for the trip to Sarawak. (really, Ikin if u read this :D). - altho it's Sarawak. i dont like Sarawak, or any state of such. but it's family gathering that matters most. i'm close to my cousins because they are the only elder girls i have in family. most of my siblings are guys. i have one younger sis but the rest are guys. so i know more about guy things than girls' back when i was little. i rmmbr i played this soccer with my brothers and friends and almost cried. i ended up playing computer game, and hey i nailed 6-7 goals per se! lol, but i know how to spin ball on finger tip. faizal taught me. awesome stuff, is this a big deal? please tell it is cuz it's the only thing i can succesfully do with a ball. i guess i was pretty boyish as a little kid. *sigh* altho i did play barbies. but barbies dont talk. they bored me much, that's why i ripped up mom's old clothes (to her great annoyance) so that i could make sth out of sth. =,=" anyway, old stories. that was when i had this amazing care free life. but now i'm 20. life handles me like bunch of issues i need to deal with. and i'm still not so sure how i'm handling them...but i know God wouldn't burden me with something out of my capability. from a minute to another, there could come a way out of each.
"be wise, be truthful, be good in every aspect of life you are dealing with".
coming across this statement in an article i read, dunno exactly what have given me slap to say that here. but it's obviously something that i lack of. pardon me cuz i'm still a learner. so taking this oppurtunity, i offer anyone i ever hurted the past years a sincere apology here. it never crossed my mind how i could break several hearts by a single act or word that i could have just undone and unsaid. i truly am sorry.
i'm sorry few things in this post is somewhat, um.."melancholic, and sentimental but also at the same time inspiring"? :P but it's really something that i wanted to say for such a long time i'm not wrtting. i got confused and mixed up lately. i need to make few things clear to me. - dont ask please. anyway, i also just learnt that few peeps actually reading this blog. and to others who also read this, let me know who you are. cuz i do not plan to take anyone or anything for granted anymore. and i really do appreciate it, thank you. funny though, cuz there's really nothing important. i just want to live up my thoughts in here. to me they are the little things in life that play minor part of what leads to what i am today. although not inspiring, but when i read them i know that my life is still pretty amazing. like, who wants perfect life anyway?
anyway, three months in egypt. and i'm surprisngly doing good. not sure if anything is even okay but i'm sure doing good. i admit to feel a little bit of homesickness again, but i wont give that a fuss. plus i'm a third year student. it's kinda weird to say that i miss my mommy. and besides, dad promised to come egypt this year or another. - but i won't keep my hopes high though. i moved in new flat. and this probably a huge mistake i'm yet to fix. but again, i wont give that a fuss. i know my move. i wasn't indecisive. i insisted to leave. it's the right thing i did, just few things that have gone astray i need to get them back on track. everything will be under control, i know. i admit to be less stressful this year, which good. and i've regained back my study spirit. so hey, what more could i ask for?
and going back to that go cart part, it's kinda humiliating how i couldn't swerve. i'm officially over my P period. but how on earth did i fail to stop that tiny stupid go cart from skidding? but u know funny truth, i actually can never drive a manual. i always fail to get the brake and clutch work in sync. and the reason why i aced my driving test is because my uncle works with JPJ. it took me months to gain faith in mom driving her car. and, i'd also secrectly got someone's car tarnished during last summer break..by accident. so probably, i'm not that a good driver, after all. *sigh* and i'm starting to miss my sibs and cousins. i can't wait for the trip to Sarawak. (really, Ikin if u read this :D). - altho it's Sarawak. i dont like Sarawak, or any state of such. but it's family gathering that matters most. i'm close to my cousins because they are the only elder girls i have in family. most of my siblings are guys. i have one younger sis but the rest are guys. so i know more about guy things than girls' back when i was little. i rmmbr i played this soccer with my brothers and friends and almost cried. i ended up playing computer game, and hey i nailed 6-7 goals per se! lol, but i know how to spin ball on finger tip. faizal taught me. awesome stuff, is this a big deal? please tell it is cuz it's the only thing i can succesfully do with a ball. i guess i was pretty boyish as a little kid. *sigh* altho i did play barbies. but barbies dont talk. they bored me much, that's why i ripped up mom's old clothes (to her great annoyance) so that i could make sth out of sth. =,=" anyway, old stories. that was when i had this amazing care free life. but now i'm 20. life handles me like bunch of issues i need to deal with. and i'm still not so sure how i'm handling them...but i know God wouldn't burden me with something out of my capability. from a minute to another, there could come a way out of each.
"be wise, be truthful, be good in every aspect of life you are dealing with".
coming across this statement in an article i read, dunno exactly what have given me slap to say that here. but it's obviously something that i lack of. pardon me cuz i'm still a learner. so taking this oppurtunity, i offer anyone i ever hurted the past years a sincere apology here. it never crossed my mind how i could break several hearts by a single act or word that i could have just undone and unsaid. i truly am sorry.
i'm sorry few things in this post is somewhat, um.."melancholic, and sentimental but also at the same time inspiring"? :P but it's really something that i wanted to say for such a long time i'm not wrtting. i got confused and mixed up lately. i need to make few things clear to me. - dont ask please. anyway, i also just learnt that few peeps actually reading this blog. and to others who also read this, let me know who you are. cuz i do not plan to take anyone or anything for granted anymore. and i really do appreciate it, thank you. funny though, cuz there's really nothing important. i just want to live up my thoughts in here. to me they are the little things in life that play minor part of what leads to what i am today. although not inspiring, but when i read them i know that my life is still pretty amazing. like, who wants perfect life anyway?
6 comments:
yeah~ way to go salwa dearie~ hehe..
well u know me right? ^^ <3
perfect life mane best kan,,:)
haha. yay me. i know u la. aduiii. how come i'm not knowing u after like, um..5 years in same class? lol. =)
and aliep, those are old pictures (but some new too). thx!
yeah.. 5 years same class, 2 yrs in same highschool but like now, aboout 10+yrs knowing each other right? haha ^^
spinning ball with finger? yerp, that pretty amazing. at last the long awaited entry has arrive.
good luck in upcoming exams
long enuf. i think i can make u autobiograph for urself. lol.
amazing, uh. but not sure can spin it like before. now years of not practicing. thanks syafiq!
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